Gratitude: A Kiss

I am grateful for a kiss.

Your lips are electrifying,

Being so close to you makes my heart race.

When I can feel your body press against mine,

I feel complete, as a half made whole.

-M.E. InkOwl

Gratitude: Forgiveness

I am grateful for forgiveness.

Not just the ability to be forgiven, but to also forgive.

With so many voices screaming for attention,

The quiet constant voice that speaks of progression cannot be heard.

It’s a choice.

I make a decision.

My mind acts.

And I am free from my anger,

I am free from the tethers of another.

And I take steps forward,

To Improve.

To be better.

To forgive.

-M. E. InkOwl

 

In The Morning Light- Michael Erickson

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I stood before you,

Feeling the morning’s light break upon my skin.

You were so close, I counted the freckles upon your face.

But I was a ghost among the living.

A hundred words held be bound to a place I’d never wanted to be.

Damnation wound tight around my legs, drawing me in.

Shame danced before my eyes as I blinked away tears.

And in the sun’s rays I lost my voice, forever.

You wiped sweat from your brow and looked at me.

But I was already gone.

This is the first in a series of twelve poems showcasing an individual’s journey of finding self-worth between the trauma and shame of the past and a desire to find healing in the present. Links will be added as the poems are posted.


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Gratitude: Smile

I am grateful for your smile.

You share the same kindness in the eyes as your mother,

Dark eyes that seem to reflect the deepest parts of existence,

All contained in an amber jewel hue.

Your cheeks, so rosy, so merry blush with love.

Oh how grateful I am for your smile,

My dear son.

-M.E. InkOwl

Gratitude: Bath Time

I am grateful for bath time.

Screams and cries of tremendous hate,

Fleeing limbs and scrambling gaits.

Dad has said those fateful words:

It’s Bath Time!

Running scared from an impending doom.

I turn the lights on in the room.

And stride with confidence to the bathroom door.

To see huddles frames thrown on the floor.

As jets of water spring to life,

These two little souls scream in terrified delight.

-M.E. Inkowl

Of A Healer: In Death’s Arms

*Warning this piece contains some graphic medical descriptions and medical field situations that some may find disturbing.*

“Hey, could you come here?” Bev called as she stuck her head out of a room.

I hear a note of panic rising slowly in her voice, but didn’t think anything of it as she stepped back beyond the glass door and curtain.

“Yeah, hang on, I’m coming,” I called back launching a pair of used gloves into a nearby garbage.

It was the end of shift and report was finished with only five minutes to spare. The day had been long and arduous and I was ready to be off the unit and out in the real world.

Not that I’ll have time to appreciate it, I thought stepping into the room and seeing a blinding orange sun sink beneath the horizon.

Dark when I get here, dark when I leave, I repeated in my head with a forlorn look.

I glanced back out into the hall where a flock of residence and medical students had gathered outside the room, no doubt waiting to make the assessments.

They’re flocking this way, I thought to myself and pulled on some gloves.

“How can I help?” I asked looking around for Bev.

“We’re in here,” she called from the bathroom, “sorry, he’s just not feeling really well.”

In Bev’s arms a elderly gentleman wretched and gasped saliva into the toilet.

Bev stood behind him hands supporting his waste as he shook slightly from the effort.

“I just need you to hold him here,” she said with a small grunt, “while I grab the Nurse and let her know he’s not feeling good.”

The man wretched again, but to no avail. His body shook again.

I jumped forward eager to help as she held onto him for a second more. I could see, for a moment, her hand shaking and face growing pale.

Something was wrong.

“Is he alright?” I called after her, but Bev was already gone running out the door.

The patient shook in my arms as another wave of nausea hit him hard.

His breaths were coming in strange sporadic gasps and the shaking was getting worse.

“Hang in there, I said, planting a foot and knee just behind his legs.

This isn’t good, I thought now feeling fear raise the hair on the back of my head, where the hell is Bev?

S-s-sit,” gasped the man as he tried to turn his head towards me.

“Yeah maybe we should sit down-” I was about to say, but his knees buckled and his entire body weight landed on my ready knee.

“Hey!” I yelled, ” anyone out there? I could use a hand!”

Where is everyone?

Suddenly the patient pitched forward and belched out a fountain of green bile into the toilet.

Caught by surprise, I gave a yell and held onto him even tighter. More bile fountained from his mouth hitting the toilet and tiled wall. Light green missed with bits is dark.

That’s too much fluid, I thought as adrenaline broke through the shock.

“Help!” I screamed as his whole body weight pulled against me. Both my arms were wrapped right around the man’s waste and we leaned towards the wall beside us.

Fluid continued to pour uncontrolled from his mouth. To my horror his head flopped forward as he slipped into unconsciousness and more fluid poured from mouth and nose. Fluid was being pushed out of the tear ducts in his eyes.

“CODE! SOMEONE CALL A CODE THIS MAN IS DYING!” I screamed slamming my body against the wall in an effort to pull the bathroom call light and signal to anyone what was going on in the room.

Where are the freaking residents? I thought wildly as I staggered under unconscious weight.

“CODE! SOMEONE CALL A CODE NOW!” I continued screaming as a I heard voices begin to yell out in the hall.

Bile was draining onto the floor, running down my arms and onto my feet.

I could feel the sticky warmth rolling over my skin and had to choke down my own vomit.

“WE’RE HERE!” Someone finally responded flinging open the doors as the rest of my strength left me and we both slid into the tiled floor.

The man’s body lolled sickly over my own as I tried to prevent his head from cracking against the ground. I was beneath him, feeling the warmth of his body on my legs and lower torso.

It was at that very moment I felt the patient’s body tense, ever so slightly, as if he were regaining consciousness. For a moment I thought he was going to open his eyes, push away from me, or speak; but then his body went boneless.

A gurgle escapes his mouth as more fluids dribbled out, but then he was gone.

“No,” I croaked, realizing what I had just felt, “No!”

Someone above us wretched and there was more yelling as medical teams poured into the room.

I grabbed wildly at the man’s neck trying to feel for a pulse, but his head just flopped against my arm.

“I’m not feeling anything!” I yelled, reaching for his arm, “there’s nothing on his arm. No pulse!”

“Let’s move him out of the room,” called a nurse from the code team. Med-students and nurses alike pulled the man off of my body. But I was in shock and couldn’t let go of his head.

“He’s gone,” I said astonished to find myself sobbing as his body was pulled out across the floor. Tracks of green bile traced the spot from me to the now lifeless body.

“He’s gone.” I cried as someone pulled me up from the floor and pulled me out the open bathroom door. I looked down to see someone working on his chest, cartilage snapping along the man’s sternum as they compressed his heart.

His body was bouncing around like a rag-doll and his stomach rolled in waves, filled with fluid.

I gagged and made for the door of the room where familiar faces stood gawking and waiting to run supplies as needed.

They looked at me in my scrubs covered with filth. Their mouths moved as a hundred questions assaulted me from all sides, but all I could do was keep walking. I gagged again and the found the energy to push myself into the nearest secure med-room.

The door clicked behind me and I sank down to the floor too numb to even cry.

The only thought in my mind, I just felt someone die.

-M.E. InkOwl

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napowrimo1The Baristas at Go Dog Go Cafe want to show our support for WordPress community members participating in NaPoWriMo/GloPoWriMo 2018. Throughout the month of April, we invite writers participating in the challenge to share some of their NaPoWriMo/ GloPoWriMo writing on Fridays.

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Of A Healer: Ode to the Dying

Where do I begin,

I am living and you are dying.

It’s as simple as that,

I sit by your bedside and watch as your chest flutters and vitals fail.

In your lungs rattles a single dice,

Signaling for Death to come.

I feel my heart beating within my chest, watching you as the numbers draw to a close.

It’s not simple, no matter what they say.

45 minutes ago I was having lunch with my family. Exchanging jokes and wiping messy faces.

Now I sit with you, as your loved ones all discuss how next week you’ll take a flight to the east coast.

This is not to cry woe is this CNA for he has a dying patient,

I made my choice.

I knew what was included in the job description when I asked for this position.

But I sit here, the only person who understands that death is coming.

Carefully laid plans of mortal minds are waiting to be dashed,

Like a Jackal hunting for a wounded prey.

I try to speak about what is to come, but I might as well be on board the Titanic.

It’s too beautiful and grand to slip into the sea,

Unthinkable, inconceivable, a gross miscalculation.

But I understand the hidden depths of this iceberg,

How much is truly out of our control and just lingering under the surface?

So please forgive me as I watch them all talk,

And hold tight to your hand as we both know what’s to come.

I’m here for you, to the very end,

I’ll assist you in closing that great glistening book of life.

-M.E. InkOwl

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For National Poetry Month in 2003, American poet Maureen Thorson pledged on her blog to write a poem a day for the month of April and invited other poets with blogs to join her. Thorson continues to sponsor this annual project and the amount of participating poets continues to grow. National Poetry Writing Month or NaPoWriMo has spread so successfully through the world poetry community that many now refer to it as Global Poetry Writing Month or GloPoWriMo.

Christine, who has been struggling with writer’s block, is participating in NaPoWriMo/GloPoWriMo 2018 to try to get herself back in the habit of writing daily and challenges you to join her. To support all the members of the Go Dog Go Cafe community who are participating, we will be hosting several special features in April to inspire you.

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Of A Healer: Batman

We worked together, moving Beth from side to side. She was approaching 85 and having had several major abdominal surgeries to remove multiple cancerous tumors her body was slowly shutting down. Severe edema made both of her legs swell to twice their size and was slowly losing her strength to stand and move.

The work was taxing in every way and as we finished unfolding clean sheets and positioning her just so Beth gave a tremendous sigh.

“What’s that for?” I asked with a grin, “you been working hard or something?”

Beth gave my arm a playful slap and between breath’s said, “you’re too funny for your own good kid.”

I laughed and gave her arm a squeeze, “well we couldn’t have done that without you Beth. You’re one in a million.”

“No,” she said grabbing hold of my hand and squeezing it tight, “you really are, I couldn’t get through this without you.”

I watched tears form in her eyes as she tried to convey her sincerity. It was touching and awkward at the same time because she was such an independent soul. I could tell it from the look in her eyes how uncomfortable she was laying in that hospital bed.

“Hey, I’ve got a funny story for you,” I said hoping this would distract her.

“I’m not going anywhere,” she answered in a gruff voice, but I saw her body slightly relax.

“The other night I had headed off to work and my son, Ira, was talking with my wife. They were clearing off dinner and in the middle of it Ira stops and says, ‘Mom, Daddy sleeps till four in the afternoon, right?’

“Without thinking my wife said, ‘Yes, Daddy has to because he works all through the night at the hospital.’ Ira stood there for a long moment thinking about this fact. Finally, he said, ‘So he sleeps during the day and works all night.’

“‘Yup, he does,’ she said with infinite patience. There was another moment of silence and then Ira’s eyes went all wide and he suddenly screamed, ‘Mom! Dad’s Batman!'”

Beth’s body rocked as she laughed at the story. I couldn’t contain myself and laughed as well. For a single moment, we weren’t in a large hospital room with whirring IV machinery and bubbling lines. The smell of sterilized surfaces and carefully filtered air disappeared and what mattered in that moment was Beth’s laughter.

A genuine look of mirth and energy filled her face as she smiled brilliantly to the room at large. It was a moment we both needed, and when it ended I helped Beth sit up higher in her bed. She grabbed my arm and with a voice full of gratitude said, “I’m so glad I have you here to help, Batman.”

“Anytime,” I said, giving her hand a squeeze, “anytime.”

-M.E. InkOwl